okay MOVED AGAIN.
Friday, November 26, 2010
yay doubt anyone reads this anymore cos i've decided to not blog here.
PRIVATE BLOG somewhere else.
woohooo :)
with lace and ribbons.
10:31 PM
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
i haven blogged for so long.
shall revive this soon.
i feel shitty today.
with lace and ribbons.
5:34 PM
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
its not easy putting on a false front to try and be happy.
i tried to. but im really drained out. ):
but i know people who care for me will worry for me. so wells, press on!!!!~
even though all doors are shut out now, im sure there's still a window left open for me..
with lace and ribbons.
9:22 AM
pull me away from the complexities of this world, maybe i'll be happier ):
Friday, June 25, 2010
i am so tired.
this morning i woke up, stared at the mirror, and realized the impact of the past few months of late nights. alert call for facial, pure relaxation, and eye masks and nothing but eye masks!
i questioned myself recently - why do my life seem so complicated when it use to be really simple and carefree? i hate being entangled in different complicated situations, they draw my energy and focus away from what i should be doing.
my life has been turned topsy turvy.
i used to have a happy family. now i don't.
i used to be a very homely person. now im not.
i..
i sit alone in the middle of nowhere, trying to join all puzzle pieces back, but only to realize there's always a few missing to paint this beautiful picture i had in mind. im not emo-ing and implying to end my life.
im just.. really.
TIRED.. ):
with lace and ribbons.
10:08 AM
Friday, June 18, 2010
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
FML.
I'm just a twenty-year old. Can fate stop fiddling around with my life?!
)):
with lace and ribbons.
9:17 AM
in a great big mess
Monday, June 7, 2010
was reading my horoscope this morning for yesterday and today's forecast..
YESTERDAY:-
| Sunday, June 6 2010
|
 | More and more, others realize that you are not what you appear to be. Your personality and the way the world sees you may appear more independent and outgoing than usual. An extroverted manner screens a more inward and quiet seeking self. In other words, you are much more sensitive and concerned about what others think. Although your outer personality may seem tough and self-centered, you are more sensitive to the needs and feelings of others than you convey outwardly. Your appearance and personality may bring you attention today. A bookstore or video store appeals to you and you may decide that one of you favorite ideas of a hobby could get a better start if you knew more about the subject. |
so true, im thoroughly amazed. but why do i feel so plastic at times? ): honestly, i dislike this feeling.
TODAY:-
Monday, June 7 2010
|
| Right now, the key to career moves involves attending to nagging details--whatever you have neglected or delayed. Attention to matters of health and efficiency are important. Opportunities are plentiful and you may find yourself wanting to do almost everything. Things are working with rather than against you; do not hold back. However, do not overdo and try to go too far too fast. Let things take their natural course; this should be an easy path now. Prosperous things result from new insights, inventions and an independent point of view. Circumstances may augment and stimulate appreciation and enjoyment of your life situation. Your mind may be very clear now and your thoughts brought to a sharp focus. Communication is productive. |
and so now im in a great big dilemma. fuck this whole matter mann. why did i even allow myself to falter into such issues? i really hate myself for that, really. ): and its no longer just one person's problem, it has secretly enveloped more and more people into this whole stupid thing. if you don't know anything, don't bother asking me what happened, i won't say it.
i knew it. breaking down is just a matter of when and where and to whom it concerns. this feeling sucks totally.
when qj left me three years back, i didn't feel anything harsh. not as 'painful' as this time round. ): perhaps it was the silent wait that impacted me this much. someone please tell me its all a dream.. things are moving a tad too fast, and i cannot catch up.
on the other hand, im feeling so lost over work issues. but this i guess isn't on my priority list now..
FML. perhaps it's time to move on and get away now..
with lace and ribbons.
10:29 AM
byebye
Friday, June 4, 2010
the road is never-ending if i choose not to stop
but bidding farewell at this point totally spells stupidity
or rather naivety
or i rather hide somewhere, cry my heart out, and realise its all but just a dream
with lace and ribbons.
1:03 AM
