fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

i was happy when i came to work today, knowing that i have new projects to follow up on again.

and then came a presentation for the client, which went all so well.

then back to office, and dearest nuris was packing up and leaving. well, she tendered, and is leaving the company for good. ): i'll miss you so much babe. stay happy always, and thanks for letting me kidnap your calculator.

and then comes end of work. stayed behind with kimbo to finish up some work. and then i was on facebook while waiting for her to finish up when i saw some retard bitching on me there. KNN.

so now im back home, bitched with my younger sis over her schoolmates and my friends, then we bathed and sat down at the dining table facing our screens again.

here comes the great news - i just so happen to check my tp email, and saw an email from the tutor saying that my approval form has been rejected and please send in a new one by 21st January 2010, Thursday, 9am.

which just so happens to be tomorrow morning. WTF.

didn't they know that im having my internship? they sent the email yesterday, and who the hell so free every day go check school email? FUCK MANN.

and then now i have so much things to finish up, they throw this pile of shit for me to redo. by tomorrow morning somemore?!

the least they could do is drop us an sms or post in ole-bb about this crap that approval forms that were rejected have to be submitted in again and those who got rejected will receive an email?

or they expect me to write a letter from my company stating that I AM STILL HAVING MY INTERNSHIP?! not everyone finished their internship so early okay?

okay, im super fed up now, super fucked up till max.

that is why i say i hate school.
11:45 PM


i haven't been blogging. cos' i've been lazy. very lazy i should say.
everytime i type in a few words or a paragraph, i just feel like deleting them and click on the 'x' tab.

anyway, i've been on leave from yesterday till today to do up my portfolio.
progression has been bad.
i have so much to say, but phrasing them is a chore.
nevertheless, it's still imcomplete.
i've only finish halfway through on the mini project part, but im at page 7 already.
haha, i'm so going to exceed. ):

okay okay, back to the topic of the post - competition.
well, i just realized, or no.. i have always realized that there seems to be people trying to compete with me over something. and i totally dislike that feeling.
why make this world so hard to live in by forcing yourself to be better than someone else always?
from grades to personal life and then to achievements.
WHATEVER.

fight with yourself okay? if A is the best you can get, go on and strive for A+, and not trying to compete if your A is a higher A or lower A than mine.

i set goals for myself. and i definitely will want to achieve them. and i know i will.
i don't like to compare myself with others cos' it will only make me a worse person.

alright, shall go back to the portfolio.
i've heard from kim-the-bim that i'm going to be very busy for the remaining of this week.
awwwwwwww mann!
7:56 PM


This has been brought up over and over again.

But every time, I realize we do not reach any closure. It's just left hanging there, until the next time someone brings it up.

It sucks so much.
9:50 PM


Kim was fb-ing today when she glanced upon this photo and I had her sent that to me immediately:



First of all, this was taken at the Siloso Beach Party a week ago.

Secondly, I don't understand why girls will wear their bra and panties instead of a bikini. Okay, I know they serve the same purposes by blocking their 3 vital points, but still, you don't wear your bra and panties to the beach right?

Thirdly, never mind their faces and their almost-quite-hot bodies. I think they're transvestites. Oh well, not me actually, but many netizens on facebook have been commenting on this.

The last point, which is also the most important point, is that the girl in pink is the victim of the infamous video which sees to 4 ah-nehs molesting a girl. (refer to the post below)

Please be a little nicer and not think the way I did when I first saw this picture.

Even though now I know the ah-nehs were molesting a 'guy' instead, I still don't like them. They were probably too blind to notice that she was a guy. Fucking gross.

Oh, I wonder if 'she' had done a good boob job. Hahah. (: With all that caressing, her boobs probably went out of shape la!

Okay, I'm tired. There's classroom session tomorrow morning at 9am and then I've got a party to attend - or maybe I should just sleep my day away. (:
10:54 PM


Watch this.



Damn KNN. In case you have drooping eyelids and cannot see clearly what is going on in that video, let me tell you.

The four indians/bangla-lookalikes were publicly molesting the girl in bikini. Apparently she's kinda tipsy, but that makes no reason for the ah-nehs to be touching all over her body. Btw, this incident happened during the countdown recently at Siloso Beach Party.

Go watch the video again. They were literally caressing her boobs and trying to tear off her bikini.

With this, it makes me ponder upon a few questions:

1. Where are her friends?
I don't think she went to the countdown alone right?! Either her boyfriend or friends should be around but WHERE ARE THEY? As drunk as her? Or probably being dragged into the bushes by the remaining gang of ah-nehs to rape them or something?

2. What is wrong with Singaporeans? Or whoever that was there that night, witness the whole incident, and start snapping/rolling away with their cameras?
For goodness sake, I see photos and videos of the girl being molested on stage so openly. Even the video lasted for about 40 seconds. And people just stood there partying and having fun watching these ah-nehs molest her. And taking pictures and videos somemore. Fuck these puny brats.


I googled a little and found variations in responses from the public regarding this incident. (with reference to http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/stomp/sgseen/caught_in_the_act/300696/4_men_harass_woman_at_countdown_party_but_no_one_helped.html)

• The girl is a slut. She wore bikini and got herself drunk and stood on the stage herself. She deserves to get molested publicly. Oh yes yes, it's a countdown party and she should be drinking milk by the bar and looking at others partying real hard. Come on la, you party and go crazy. But well, this time round this young lady probably learnt a hard lesson. I'm not saying she's not at fault, I think she should at least have gotten someone along with her. Or her friends should tag along when she runs off and start dancing on the stage right? Babe, dump your friends. They're idiots.
  

• I would have slapped the men. Thanks for being one of those FEW that stands up for this lady. But I would have gotten a bottle to smash their privates and then push them off the stage. KNS.
  

• I don't really care because it's not my business. Oh, so one day if it happens to you or your girlfriends, I'll walk up and say the same thing to you then.
  

Tell me now, how to not shun away from ah-nehs?

It's not that I am racist. But please, what is wrong with them? They seem so proud to be doing that on the stage, in front of the thousands pairs of eyes. KNN.

I always have this habit of staying away from ah-nehs. I am not discriminating or whatsoever but since young, my mummy always tells me "you better behave yourself, if not the ah bu neh neh will come catch you". (I see many nods in agreement.)

Right right right? See?! From young, I was told to stay away from them. So the chinese idiom "耳濡目染" which means being influenced by the environment stays true.

Let me reiterate, I AM NOT RACIST OKAY?! I just have a preference of sticking to similar race - Chinese, Malays and Angmohs (I know this is not a race, whatever la! Don't laugh at this please!).

And this morning on my way to work, there were some ah-nehs around me. Unknowingly, I found myself drifting away from wherever they were. I just feel quite grossed out. Especially after watching the video.

Okay, enough of ah-nehs talk. Gotta rush off for an event at Sentosa in 15 minutes time. Shall blog again very soon! (:
10:52 AM


HAPPY 2010!

Nothing feels different to me. It's just a jump in numbers from 09 to 10 isn't it? Seeing everyone else make a big hoo-ha over the new year, seems like I'm the only one not drowning myself in this joyous period. Perhaps it's true that as one grows older, these passing years simply means nothing. Ahh shit. I am still young right? Yes, so true.

Okay, I see people splashing their new year resolutions across their fb and blogs. So, here's mine:
1. Cut down on my frivolous spending.
2. I will try to cut down on messiness at home and at my workplace.
3. Can't think of any other for now, shall leave this open for future entries. (:



I've always been someone who's straightforward and speaks my heart. However, lately I've learnt that not everyone can take my words lightly. Even a slightest simplest sms will send me into whirls of thinking on how to reply. I've since learnt to reject in a subtle unknowing manner, and to speak only after thinking through the consequences my words may land me into.

That aside, lately I've been hooked onto prawning! :DDD For the first time of my life, I went prawning at East Coast yesterday! At first we took up the 3-hour package, then maine and me decided to extend because it was soooooooooo fun waiting for the prawns to get hooked! Although our skills ain't there - only 4 prawns within that 4 hours, we still went home with one kg worth of prawns for dinner...


East Coast Prawning.


Yay! Our very first prawn!! (:


Using chicken liver as bait. Or maybe I should say teeny weeny bits and pieces of chicken liver. (:


"Our" catch for the day!


The catch waiting in the basin to be shelled. (:


I know it doesn't look very yummy, but looks doesn't = taste.


stir-fried prawns with butter and cheese. (:

I did not steal anyone's prawns okay! Hahahahaha, we had so much prawns eventually because some guy who was prawning with his two kids decides to give us all their remaining prawns. Fucking nice right! We didn't go seduce him or whatsoever, but I swore the entire pool of prawners (is that what you call people who go prawning? haha, I dun care, I think it is) who saw the kid giving me their catch was green with jealousy boiling high. :D There was this funny auntie who stood behind us throughout the last 2 hours, I wondered if she wanted to steal my pathetic catch lor. And when the little boy came to give us his catch, she was smiling as if it was her they were giving the prawns to. Some people are simply so funny.

But okay la, I think they gave us the prawns because there was a bimbo squealing off when the prawns jumped off her hands and she funnily swerved her rod over the fence when she got her catch. I don't know who the bimbo is though. (:

So after the hearty catch, I cabbed home while maine drove off to find her dad. And along the way, I was thinking hard to decide the fate of these huge prawns. And the results were YUMMILICIOUS I swore. My sister loved my prawns too lor!

Backdate to New Year Day. Woke up early morning to do up the accounts for clique. I realised how much I've spent for the past 4 months only when I start digging through the stacks of receipts. ): That is why, I made my new year resolution this year to spend lesser, shop lesser, use the cards wiser. (:

Anyway, was late when rushing off to meet kim so I had to flag a cab there instead. At first I flagged one citycab, and then the uncle mumbled some foreign language I don't understand, and simply signalled that he can't take me. So fine, because of that thirty seconds spent understanding his words, I missed 3 other empty cabs. KNN. Then when the next empty one came along like 3 minutes later, I got on and told the cabbie my destination - United Square. So he drove off for less than 200m and then told me he doesn't know his way there.

Cabbie: Uhm, actually I don't know how to get there from here. Do you know how to go there?

Me: Erm. There's a reason why I'm taking a cab right? (If I jolly well know how to go there, I would obviously drive there myself - minus the fact that I don't have a license yet haha.)

Cabbie: Oh okay. So how do I get there? CTE?

Me: Yes. (then I gave him directions to turn to CTE)

(on CTE, exiting to Thomson Road/Balestier Road)
(He was making a turn, ready to enter some carpark.)

Cabbie: So it's here right? Novena Square.

Me: Err. No, I want to go to United Square.

Cabbie: Oh okay.. (drives off to the front junction) I think its that building (points to United Square) but I cannot turn here already, can I just drop you off here?

Me: No. I said I wanted to go United Square right? This is far from there. Can you just drive further up and see if you can make a U-turn anywhere? (fuming like mad at this point, how dumb can he get la!)

Cabbie: I cannot make a turn here..

Me: I KNOW! That's why I said go up front to see if you can make a turn right? (Fuck la, I'm the one paying the cab fare can!)

(So further up the road, there was a turn-in which leads to the cab stand of United Square and he turned in so I unwillingly paid him the $11 cab fare and got out of the cab, still fuming at the whole ride experience.)

I know I was a bitch. But if you jolly well don't know your roads, then get a GPS or a directory!! For goodness sake, don't be a cabbie if you don't know how to drive around la! KNS!

What a way to start off the new year! ><
kim. 5 months of internship, 5 months of close friendship and counting on. (:

With that, shall end this first post of this blog with..



Happy New Year!! ♥

sometimes the different facets of life exposes the ugly sides to it - just like the windshield wiper opens up the road for the driver.
4:52 PM